Aamukaksi

Howdy!

Today I decided to take a step I've been thinking about for a long time and started my own artist page on Facebook: www.facebook.com/psykeoner

Check it out in case you want to see more of my stuff on a regular basis.

Cheers,
Jouni "Psyke" Väänänen

...the comments I get on my work more often!

The feedback I get is important to me and encourages me to push myself forward. Hopefully that means better styles and techniques (on graffiti, photography and illustration) during MMXII.

Thanks a lot for your comments. Even if it does take me quite a while to reply to them I always do in the end. ^_^

- Jouni / Psyke1

I haven't really either updated my journal here on DA or uploaded new deviations in a long long while. Being busy and having accounts on way too many web communities can cause that.

Today I'll upload something. Don't quite know what yet but... something.

I miss writing in english. Haven't really done much of it (official emails don't count) since I left laFraise. Yesterday I started thinking about secretly registering a new domain and opening an english blog. For a short while it seemed like a sensible idea but then the reality hit me in the face again; I'm way too busy for that and currently struggling even with my finnish blog. Ok, I'm updating it every now and then but the quality of the content has been a bit questionable lately. Just yesterday I did write a new entry but it already feels like I probably shouldn't have published it.

Blogging may be a waste of time in many ways since I'm not really aiming to achieve anything by doing it. Having said that I do enjoy writing a whole lot. Unfortunately I'm not 20 anymore and have actually started to care about what I write & publish. It's a curse and a blessing. A few years back most of the stuff I wrote was absolute crap but there was a little diamond in that pile every now then. These days I'm so scared of not coming up with the diamonds that it becomes a self-fullfilling prophecy; not having the guts to suck at something most of the time guarantees that you'll fail every single time until you get your shit together.

It's not like I'm supposed to write a new Catcher in the Rye every time I start banging the keyboard. Gotta remember that.

Sometimes taking photos isn't just taking photos but a whole lot more. Having a photosession with someone you truly, madly and deeply care about is sweet yet very bitter if when you know the person doesn't quite share the same feeling with you anymore. Especially editing the photos the next day is absolute torment - you have to keep staring your love in her eyes all day long and do your best to make her look the way you see her.

Naturally I could choose not to take photos of her and she would probably totally understand it. Then again, if you've ever been in love you understand that it really isn't an option either. Sharing a few magical moments during the shoot is just about worth getting crucified for. Reaching that contact you used to have all the time for a split second again is a touch of heaven.

Yesterday I was delighted, excited, happy, sad, devastated and thrilled all at the same time. Today I'm just sad.